So Young

summer comes
and i wish
i was like these brave
maybe foolish
beautiful women
who bare their skin
no holds back
this is who i am

i take off my sweater now
and i’m struggling to shed
years of insecurity

someone called me ma’am yesterday
maybe I’m not as young
as i once was
but

i still feel like my skin
doesn’t fit quite right
i view the world
with broken-colored glasses
everything is crooked
and wavy

like a low-budget film
or plastic melting in the sun

i’m feeling raw and unfinished
broken and brand new
like a square shape
for a round hole

i am awkward
as I am young

reliving life
…at twenty-one

4/29/2024 Monday Morning Inspiration – Mental Health

I like posting quotes regarding mental health, because I feel like many of us struggle and it is not talked about enough. We often don’t pay enough attention to our mental health. This is a friendly reminder to do something for yourself this week. Breathe and take it one step at a time. Sometimes, the dawning of a new day, does let you reset when you need to. Anxiety always tells us things are worse than they are.

Take care of yourself this week!

What Happened to the  Week?

May is almost here, and the days are flying by like a bird caught in a storm. It’s not been smooth sailing here, unfortunately. Dealing with some mental health issues and with a chocolate lab who is recovering from TPLO surgery and who wants to run and play but can’t. Energy levels have been low.

The sun is out, though, and spring is definitely here! I snapped these on campus the other day. Soo pretty outside!! Annd I’ve included some pictures of poor Koda in his cone. Hopefully, the doctor will give us good news at his check-up next week. πŸ™

I hope everyone has a good weekend! I hope to post more next week!

4/21/24 Monday Morning Inspiration – What are you doing for yourself this week?

We are home with a chocolate lab who is recovering from TPLO surgery, and work is picking up at the University while the semester is nearing its end. It’s my first full cycle (fall and spring together) and I can’t believe I’ve almost been on my new job for 10+ months!

Life keeps plugging on, but don’t forget to take time for yourself. (Example: I deliberately take a day off every 6-8 weeks to get my hair recolored.) A healthy mental health is so important and something we tend to ignore like it’s just going to get better. I am currently trying new medication and while enduring the side effects is not awesome, I’m already starting to see results. Like, is this how it feels to not feel some form of worry 100% of the time?! It’s crazy.

I hope everyone has an awesome week! Almost May!!

My First Solar Eclipse at 100% Totality


Hi all! We found ourselves in Vermont to view the solar eclipse and man, it was so worth it! We drove 700+ miles (14 hours in the car,) and I would do it all again in a heartbeat.


Let me set the scene…

At a rest stop outside of Newport, Vermont. Cars surround the little patch of rest area. The sky is blue with not a cloud in sight, and the sun beats down with such warmth that you don’t mind the lingering patches of snow on the ground or the cool breeze that smells like pine trees. Some people are there with telescopes, too, and there are a few dogs. Others spread blankets out on the grass and people sit around in chairs under trees or near their cars. A dad and a son play Frisbee while waiting. An older woman walks by. “What a day to be alive!” she says.

Across the way, someone is cooking bacon. There are a few scientists nearby, throwing words around like ‘progression’ and someone asks, “is this your first totality?” Several people are wearing black ‘2024 Solar Eclipse’ t-shirts. On the highway, cars trickle by, as well as some large trucks; the sound of plastic flapping loudly on wrapped cargo as it barrels down the hill. Some trucks honk at the people at the rest stop. In solidarity of the eclipse, perhaps, or maybe they’re annoyed there’s no room for them to stop…too rest…

A few people wander over to Michael at his telescope; curious about the equipment he’s using and at what setting…clearly he must have a camera mounted to that large telescope. (He doesn’t. He used his phone.) Someone starts to play music, but it isn’t intrusive; the light rock just feels like part of the experience; relaxing and playful.

Then, the light disappears completely, and your breath catches. The sun is gone and you’re surrounded by a three-hundred-sixty degree view of what looks like a sunset. Two planets appear in the sky suddenly. They’ve been there this whole time, but you’re so surprised…and the light that glows around the moon feels otherworldly and transformative.

There have been a few sights in my lifetime that have made me cry. Some of the landscapes in Zion, Utah, as well as seeing the Grand Canyon for the first time. This was also one of them. #10/10. #wouldrecommend.

I hope many of you were able to enjoy the eclipse, and if not…I hope you catch the next one. Happy Thursday!

Eclipse

a lifetime moment

when the moon comes and takes the

sun’s moment to shine

Picture credit to my fiance, Michael. He took this with his telescope.

I meant to post this in the morning today… but I do have an excuse. Drove up to Newport, VT yesterday to view the eclipse and got home 1am last night. 😭😝πŸ˜ͺ😴

It was so worth it, though!