mental health

Under the Sea

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I had a dream I lived under water
in a station on the sea floor
We studied sharks and sea creatures
hoping we could learn more

The station walked on four legs
like a squat robot made of stone
we traveled deep and traveler far
a few of us called it home

I remember the color of the canyon
an orange-brown of cracked dirt
Yellow-green Marine life with extra frills
like maybe we weren’t on earth

Nothing else happened in the dream
we just lumbered on some more
searching for what we couldn’t find
we were made to learn and explore

selective history

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how many heroes
are lost to time
because of their skin color
how many women
forgotten
because of their sex
and if you’re a woman of color
you’re a ripped page
out of someone’s notebook
trampled into obscurity
until someone with power
or money
plucks your story into the light of day

eventually

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the hardest thing
about growing up
or growing old
is the relationships you grow out of

love may be infinite
but time doesn’t mean
you’ll be in the same place
or the same time
always

eventually
you have to admit
that how you once meant to somebody
is now different

she’s not a baby anymore
she’s on her own path now
you blinked
and missed the old one

but
how you wish
like you could grasp it in your hand
a wish like squiggly worms
you wish
you could zip along, too

Once again (sigh), it’s not Monday. I’ve been toying with the idea of switching to Tuesday and Wednesday posts.

Wrote this one last night. It’s difficult for me to watch my nieces and nephews get older. For some reason, it’s like I always thought they’d be little. Maybe in my eyes they still are. Even though they’re not. 😭

–AJM

aliens

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I had a dream I visited aliens
they left their spaceship on the moon
yet in the time they left it
I stepped on it like a balloon

and it didn’t pop or float away
it shattered and made a mess
for the rest of the dream they chased me
trying to get me to confess

the space ship was red and white
like a plastic bobber on the lake
it hovered over my parents house
so close it made the windows shake

and each time they looked for me
I ran away to some place new
getting more and more exhausted
as my paranoia grew

I was so afraid and full of fear
but I never saw their faces
I just ran away from the truth I knew
that I was lacking in social graces

Once again, it’s not Monday. I didn’t want to be away for the next few days and not post anything. This one is actually written from a dream I had a month or so ago. I have strange dreams a lot and might consider writing more on them.

I hope everyone has a nice week and to those of us in the US – a very Happy Thanksgiving!! ❤️

~AJM

the subway

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rocketing through darkness
through holes underneath the earth
like a fast-moving worm or a snake
all kinds of humans jostle from side to side

a loud screech, and i’m to mind the gap for the 60th time and outside
the smell of piss and dirt and exhaust
someone yells manhgoes!
because I want to eat fresh fruit
in darkness and dust

an old woman sits on a bench
her feet are black with dirt
bruises and sores on her legs
her arms are crossed
her eyes, too
everything she owns, is in a few plastic bags within reach

we scurry past
just another unpleasantness
a forgotten thing
in the darkness beneath the earth

This one was inspired by a recent trip to NYC last weekend… which is why I missed posting last Monday, actually. Saw a Yankee game, among other things! Maybe I’ll do a blog post about it later this week if I have time. Happy Monday!

-AJM

Monday-est of Mondays

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late for work today

twisted my ankle walking

miserable rain

Forgot to get a post ready last night, sick with bronchitis and a sinus infection, it’s rainy and dark, and turned my ankle walking into work. 😭😭  I’d like a redo for today, thank you!

AJM

Case of the Mondays

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time to sleep
it’s time i keep
close to myself
when the day is done
reality creeps in
and brings with it
hopelessness

It’s so difficult to be ON all of the time. I think it’s okay to make space for the crappy emotional health days. I certainly had my share of them last week. It’s important to come back, though, if you can… and know if you have more sad says than most, you’re not alone. ❤

–AJM