Not Perfect

the greatest part about learning to love yourself
is loving yourself on the days
where you don’t look your best

you feel fat
you’ve gained weight
to look at your naked body in the mirror
to see the lumps
the discoloration
the stretch marks
to feel sexy because
perfect, never meant to be
an empty canvas

and although my curves are rounded
and my bumps have lumps
and my stomach doesn’t stick out quite right
I am everything I was meant to be

from aunt mana

she was three days old
at my high-school graduation
three years old when we watched
A Bug’s Life together
and now eighteen
and driving
and graduating today
about to embark on the world
nervous and unsure
but so beautiful
oh, so beautiful

she is gorgeous on the inside
and gorgeous on the outside

i wish for her
to always love herself
as much as she is
loved by everyone


My niece Maddie is graduating high-school today. How can it be? How can it be?

AJM

Congratulations

For all the graduates.

AJM


you are
beautiful
brave
and strong
you can do no wrong

work hard
work smart
remember to follow your heart

be kind
stay true
always make time for you

this is your life
follow those dreams
but don’t forget to wear sunscreen

read books
and laugh lots
always look in your blindspot

aim high
know when to go slow
and always remember the below:

chase your dreams
but don’t forget
there is still so much that hasn’t happened yet

what would the world look like

Yesterday, I did a little research and reading about Juneteenth, and I was inspired to write this poem. Slavery should not have happened. It should have never started to begin with in the 16th century.

I hope wherever you are, you are enjoying the day, learning something new, and enjoying time with family and friends. Happy Juneteenth!

AJM


what would the world look like 

if no one decided
that men, women and children
were no better than savages
because of their skin color
because they didn’t live in houses
with picket fences
and cobbled stones

if no one said
i’ll take this one and then that one
stuffed them into watery cages
where people suffered, died and bled

if no one said
work this land or we’ll kill you
or rape your women, or beat your children
you’ll know no life other than terror
you’ll know no life other than work
to feel the rotten sting of shame
to not know your self worth

what would the world look like

if someone had said
show me where you come from
i’d like to understand

if someone had listened

would they know
their crime would crush
hundreds of generations

what would the world look like

if someone had
backed away
took themselves home
and worked the land themselves

Original Songwriting: Embracing Pain and Love Forever

Sometimes, the muse strikes at the most interesting times. I found myself awake at 8 am Sunday morning, having woken up from a dream where I was writing a song with someone. The dream I remember…barely. It was a hodgepodge of balconies and bathrooms that never end, a situation where I made a promise to someone, I was in trouble, my heart was broken, someone had stolen something, on the run from the mob or in some kind of Bridgeton reinactment…my heart thinks maybe the latter because I remember dresses and a lot of regency-inspired costumes, but anyway, in the dream, I was writing a song about heartbreak and here’s what I came up with. It might be something, it might be nothing, but I also thought, not bad for someone who wasn’t conscious, hah.
~AJM



Just looking to find the time
to write down these thoughts of mine
but they hurt
they hurt

But pain makes you stronger
regret is for lovers
pain is a testament
that love is forever

So let it rain
so let it rain
so let it rain

Haiku, Haiku, Haiku

1.

time to write something

my brain is dead and tired

creative time gone

2.

sink into pillow

and don’t fight your tired eyes

dreams awake and start

3.

long day, many steps

good conversation and friends

it feels like a good future

The Road Home

in my mind, i fly
long grass on both sides
the black and white cows are silent
they are decor to this
one woman band
barreling her way
over this hill, this curve and the next
until everything within
vibrates
the silos, the grass covered hill,
those trees
that sunlight highlighting
the puffy white clouds
behind the blue
until everything feels too full